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Maggi Brown's avatar

Several comments: 1. I can't believe you were ever insecure about your appearance. Have always thought of you as beautiful and super cool. To imagine you as awkward... strange! 2. I had a similar experience with a little girl quite a few years back. She was walking down a freeway exit. I can't remember why, but there was some semi-plausible reason. I felt compelled to pick her up despite knowing it was not allowed in our current world. I brought her to her apt (she was old about to tell me where she lived.) Her mom's reactions as exactly like the mom in your story. I agonized afterward. Wanted to make it clear to the mom I was only trying to help. She was clearly suspicious and moreover felt judged. It's a damned if you do, damned if you don't situation. 3. Loved the seals video. Loved the Beckham doc. Good for you for coaching! Bored to death by Tom Lake.

4. You'll find something for a job. What a total drag looking. No liberal private schools to teach art in? Out art teacher has a good gig! I like the sound of your preschool educators's work but I'm sure it's not what you're looking for.

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Belle Chesler's avatar

A small child alone on an on-ramp! I mean, there's only one choice in that situation, right?

And Tom Lake...yeah. I usually love Ann Patchett, but this one did not do it for me.

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Patty's avatar

We have moved a lot so I have had so many job interviews. It is tough and I did get very tired of the dog and pony show. I wish you well and am praying you find something wonderful that matches your talents. Your writing is exceptional and I always look forward to reading your posts.

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Belle Chesler's avatar

Thank you, Patty!

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Mary Paiko's avatar

Dear Belle Violet, your writing is an amazing talent, and your ability to share is phenomenal.

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Belle Chesler's avatar

Thank you, Mares!

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Nechama Tamler's avatar

I look forward to reading your Notes from the Lagoon even though you aren't there anymore. You are such a good diarist and fabulous at describing how the past is ever present in your life. Of course I remember you at 12 and during those years and had no idea of your internal life.

One thing more--how are you feeling as a Jew given what has happened this week in Israel, and here too?

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Belle Chesler's avatar

Thank you, Nechama.

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chrisj's avatar

Really enjoyed reading this today on my 70th birthday. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

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Belle Chesler's avatar

Thank you for reading!

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Samantha Chesler's avatar

So enjoyed this. X

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Belle Chesler's avatar

Thank you, Samantha.

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Brittni von Ahlefeld's avatar

Really needed to read this today. Thank you for writing from the heart and sharing so openly. ❤️

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